Was playing the piano halfway when the notion of "Do what you like and you never have to work a single day" sunk in. Fug, I rlly don't mind playing the piano all day everyday lah? Should have been a pianist.

Which brought me back to the question of.... B&F or Marketing? Rlly torn between these 2 choices.
I guess it's pretty clear that I enjoy Marketing more than bonds and equities and I guess what's rlly holding me back is this sudden realisation. I mean being an investment banker is my ambition since Sec 2 and everything that I had been doing geared me towards this dream. It was my dream job. 

Came across this article ytd night: The best part of life is realising why it's better that things didn't work out

That moment you realize your “dream job” was never really your dream job.

It takes some people longer than others to arrive at their purpose in life – it’s not anyone’s fault, as finding our purpose in life is found just as much outside of us as it is inside of us.

But experiencing that moment of realization, of realizing that what you once thought was your purpose in life is not at all your true purpose in life, is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world.

Often we fail at either reaching or succeeding in our dream jobs because there is something more, something greater, waiting for us.

Came into NBS just for B&F and all of a sudden I'm not doing B&F anymore? I'm not sure if this is the right choice or not. And I'm not even sure if I can get into B&F or not. And should I even appeal if I'm rejected? Technically, life has alr helped cross out this option for me since I screwed up FM and it's highly likely I won't get accepted. So perhaps I was brought here for a different purpose...? I guess perhaps the hardest part is letting go. Letting go of the dream I had envisioned. Omg this is rlly such a big leap of faith :{{{{{{{{{{ Am I rlly doing this???????

Eat sleep eat sleep planning for BKK, living the pig life rn, and since I'm so free.......

7th day of Summer (Friday 15/5): MOOKATA W PIZZAS

Place was called Tom Yum Kung Fu @ Serangoon Gardens and apparently you can see it from the bus stop but me and Cheng being early (IKR I'M EARLY! UNI HAS CHANGED ME!) and horrible w directions, we walked one whole big round and lost (but found) our way LOL

Thai iced milk tea was meh, Nakhon's is way better. That green fanta drink tasted funky lol but nubbad~

Manual captions cos my snapchat cant save captions for vids :( 
1// waiting for Minz~
2// wanted to capture the meat sizzling but DAMMIT
3// no caption LOL
4// (cow emoji) KATA

Crepe (CRAYP apparently that's how you pronounce it). Ya we ordered Speculoos ice cream on the CRAYP. Speculoos ice cream tasted like caramel cookie ice cream.

😎😉😲😴 Attempt #1

😎😉😲😴 Attempt #2

Pris says don't copy her post the same picture :(((

8th day of Summer (Sat 16/5): PRAWNING

9th day of Summer (Sun 18/5)

At the end of the day, it's all about how you choose to perceive things right? Draw lessons/ takeaways from every shit that had happened, remember the lessons learnt and see them as stepping stones towards becoming a better person.

Whatever it is, do the right things, live without regret, live without grudge, make the best out of what is current, take things easy, let go what needs to be, embrace change, create new memories, don't expect, don't overthink, be flexible, be happy~

Could probably sum the whole thing up in one phrase? "Have courage and be kind~" Sure takes a whole lot of effort living up the PRIMA FACIE cliche/ fairytale-ish/ simplistic words

Watched Pitch Perfect 2 w Nicole and the ending was <333 The part where all the previous generations of Bellas appeared and everyone was just waving along, the sea of lights AHHHHH ♥ .♥ okay maybe I have a thing for lights hahaha reminded me of Seagames. So much feels.

Crashed Sirachar's lecture today! Got up at 5.45am (BEEN SO LONG?!) and clearly my body wasn't made for such ungodly hours hahaha

She was having Managerial Accounting, which is also a mod I'd have to take next year so might as well~

The lecturer came over and asked what was my name (their lecture was like our tutorial class size) and I was like... "Errr... Crystal" HAHAHAHA idk I couldn't think of any fake names so I koped Minz's fake name HAHAHA okay I'll call myself Cherise next time hehe I'd always liked Cherise (SHER-RIS)

She was like, "Why aren't you taking down notes?" and I said my laptop died. LOL.
The only thing I learnt was functional based costing, ABC costing, DHL, direct overhead costs. Or maybe I only know the terms but as to how to work it out............ (ungodly hours)

Moved out of hall today! And as I was packing I found and read through some old letters which made me think back and reflect a lot and I.... teared. I hope its not too late now for me to realise that, to realise how little of an effort I had put in. If only I knew then, what I knew now right. Would definitely have done things differently. But I didn't know?!?! Nobody told me? Nobody taught me? I guess maybe everything comes from experience and perhaps I just hadn't.... seen or experienced the world much yet. 

"If it's easy, everybody would do it!
It's difficult, that's right! And it's worth it! 

Are there are gonna be some moments where you want to give up? Yes. Will there be some moments where it seems impossible? The pain that you're experiencing, the disappointment that you are experiencing that you're going to say.... it's not worth it? Yes that's going to be right there for you. It's going to be in your face. Telling you to go back! But don't let the distractions distract you.... Alright, keep moving don't stop! 

I don't care how hard you fail. I don't care how many times you fail the test. I don't care if nobody believe in you. It only takes you to believe in yourself to get this thing done.
What is it that will give you the drive? What is it that will ignite the courage in you to get up and come back again and again and again? Your WHY! Your WHY is going to push you when you cannot push yourself. When you want to quit and give up, your WHY is going to give you the edge you need, that advantage you need, that lift that you need to get up to the next level. Your WHY.  

Yes we are tired. Yes we are hungry. Yes the mind is saying give up. Yes it's saying quit. But we cannot quit... because we realise we have not reached the goal yet. This is not the goal. This is not what I dreamed about. This is not what it looks like. 

It's not the end. Until you have give up.  

If you are still in the game, which means that if you're in the game, and there is still time in the game, there is still time left in the game.... then you can still win the game."