"Why do you still help them?"
"................. I don't know"

It's true that I have every single right to say no and as much as I feel a sense of injustice, why do I still do it? Why do I still agree to help? I don't know. And I rlly don't. I agreed because..... I just felt like helping.

I went back and started thinking, reflecting, and maybe, because this


Then again, through it all, I have learnt to only help within my own capacity and nothing more. Because when you fall short of expectations, ppl are just gonna blame you for it, forgetting the fact that they were the ones approaching you for help in the first place.

I have learnt how words are fleeting. People can praise you to the skies when they need you but actually hate you to the bottom of the trenches and cast you aside when your help is no longer needed.

I have learnt that it is important to stand up for yourself, never to allow people to step on you nor bear accusations for the sake of wanting peace. Because if you don't, people are just gonna spread false information or one-sided stories and poof goes your reputation.

I have learnt that there is absolutely no need to please everyone nor fight for acceptance because when it comes to friends, quality > quantity and if they aren't people you're gonna be keeping in your life then they don't rlly matter.

"It's their loss anyway." YUP, I very well agree.

A lil more inconvenient but it's okay, I more ready for the outside world now .

Haven't been touching this space in quite some time and its now about a week till school starts ohgosh

Anw, bought a new penny board and I'm rlly happy w it cos its pink!!! Well its not exactly a penny board cos the brand isn't Penny and I chose the wooden board instead of plastic for better stability. I was asking the shopkeeper if there were any differences between the normal plastic cruisers and penny boards cos the normal ones were only $139 whereas the PENNY brand boards were like..... $185? daheck! Turns out, functionality wise, they are all the same and it is only because of the BRAND that those Pennys are so ex. Wow.

Check out the pink WEW #sopunny
 Can't wait to get cruisin w mah pink baby!