Just thinking about how much I have changed...

From reading a book everyday in primary school,

to playing the piano everyday in secondary school and junior college,

and the diaries that I used to write everyday,

I don't do those anymore.

Just reminiscing and feeling nostalgic for the old me after hearing this song.

It got me thinking about who I was in the past, who I am, and who I want to be in the future. 

University had changed me a lot.

A lot of new experiences, spirals of dopamine highs, bottomless pits of lows.

Then came graduation that marked the end of the familiar 15-year chapter.

The 15 years that I lived with the sole goal of striving towards

entering a top school, with top grades, scoring a top internship and securing a top job...   

Have I achieved my goals?
I would say so. 

 The next question is... 

Now what? 

It's a whole new world of endless possibilities.

Being in a relationship had also taught me that there's so much more to life.

The non-quantifiable things like love, health, family, friends. 

It made me redefine how I looked at life, and my definition of success.

Looking back though, 

I am able to see how much I have grown

and I can't help thinking how would I be like in future. 

I am thankful for each and every experience,

 and each and every person that I have crossed paths with,

for it is each and every of the small things 

that have shaped me to who I am today.

I like who I am today, and I am proud of me too.

I am also proud of the accomplishments that I have achieved,

and I oughta give myself more credit for that.

That aside,

this new world that I am navigating through,

I'll figure it out.

As Steve Jobs said, we have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in our future. 

(Still one of my favourite quotes heh)

With the constant flux of changes,

 at least there is still something that was a part of me, and still a part of me - photo-editing!

Still sparks that joy in me ;) 

Ok ending the pensive mood with a throwback to a happy day at Ngong Ping Village

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Don't let adverse facts stand in the way of a good decision.

It was late one winter night in Korea. Powell and his battalion of 500 soldiers had just finished a tough week of training and were waiting for trucks to take them back to their barracks 20 miles away when word came in that there was a fuel shortage. No trucks; they'd have to walk.