When I read back at who I was in the past, I really like that version of me
I became so toxic and hateful during 2022-2023. It is so horrible. I really hate it.
I need to cleanse myself and become pure again.
Need another mountain expedition.
The importance of intuition.
YOGA
Today, I felt an overpowering need to go to a yoga class and so, I did.
It turned out to be a 1-1 session, the first time ever I had that.
Started with deep breaths, and then the yoga instructor said to set the intentions about why I was there, and what do I want to feel before, during, and after the session.
Said about, it is about being peaceful, it is not about the intensity, it is about the calm.
Those hit me because recently I was thinking about what love should feel like.
At the end, she mentioned that yoga is a practice of peacefulness.
That hit me again because they usually say it is about mindfulness instead.
And peace was really what I needed.
WALK
Then, I had an overwhelming urge again, to take a walk.
A long walk to clear my mind and calm my thoughts.
I walked from the yoga studio at Bugis, to Marina Bay Sands, to Marina Barrage.
Things that were very therapeutic for me:
The light pastel sky.
The little bird prancing into the grass.
The water flowing and moving
The city skyline amidst the sunset, and oh my gosh, the clouds look so dramatic.
BACK
When it was time to head back, I had two choices - Follow back the old path, or go a new one.
Felt a sense of sian going back the old path.
And I felt a calling to walk along Gardens by the Bay instead and see new scenery.
Just RIGHT when I reached the Supertrees, the Garden Rhapsody started and played a performance to the songs of Singapore.
The performance ended off with the song "Home"
Where my dreams wait for me, where I will never be alone...
It was just so amazing and so beautiful.
Somehow following my heart brought me to something that I really needed.
It was like a fucking calling.
It felt like the universe was telling me that I am right where I am supposed to be.
I am at the right place, at the right time.
This is what is needed.
The stars just fucking aligned.
I could have continued walking towards East Coast Park, but it didn't feel right.
I could have ignored the sunset, chose not to sit at the bench and admired the scenery, but it didn't feel right.
I could have walked back towards Raffles Place, but it didn't feel right.
I just did what felt right, and everything just ended so beautifully.
And I will continue to do what feels right, and trust my intuition.
