Somewhere in the middle of the night;
this familiar feeling strikes,
I wish I may, I wish I might;
hold on to this so dearly tight
this familiar feeling strikes,
I wish I may, I wish I might;
hold on to this so dearly tight
There will never be a point in your life where it is the right time to do a great thing. If you're waiting for that perfect moment, for that perfect timing, it's not going to happen. You know what you have to do? You have to create that perfect time and that perfect opportunity and that perfect situation.
So a lot of people become comfortable. They stop growing, they stop wanting anything, they become satisfied. People getting ready to go for jobs that they don't like, jobs that are making them sick. You see when you're not pursuing your goals, you are literally committing spiritual suicide. When you have some goal out here that you are stretching for and reaching for that takes you out of your comfort zone, you will find out some talents and abilities you have that you didn't know you have.
When the messenger of misery visits you, what are you going to do? What will keep you in the game?
There are things that you'll never need to know, that you may only need to know one time in your life but that could save your life because you had that knowledge.
Unless you attempt to do something beyond that, which you already mastered, you will never grow. What is it that you looked at, at some point in time you decided that you couldn't do it, that you talked yourself out of it.
What reason can you remember that you can call on, that you can reach on, that can make you get back up? Find that reason. If you're not where you are, if you're not where you wanna be, if you don't have what you want to have, if you are not where you think you should be at this particular place, it has nothing to do with the system but with the fact that you are not willing to make a sacrifice.
Listen to me, if it was easy, everybody would do it.
Most people take their greatness, take their ideas, to the graveyard with them.The wealthiest place on the planet is the graveyard. Because in the graveyard, we would find inventions that we were never ever exposed to, ideas, dreams that never became reality; hopes, aspirations that were never acted upon.
You will never ever be successful until you turn your pain into greatness, until you allow your pain to push you from where you are to push you to where you need to be. Stop pushing away your pain, embrace your pain.
Let the biggest enemy you have to deal with be yourself! There is an old African proverb that says if there is no enemy within, the enemy outside can do us no harm.
I would say if life knocks you down, try to land on your back because if you can look up, you can get back up.
Was chatting with Jinghui and Renyong earlier and somehow we drifted to topic of..... A's.
I foresee the tension in the hall breaking the fine strings holding my sanity, the quote in blue circling my head. Fuck, I don't think I have the courage to look at my results, look at the judgement slip of my efforts, look at the possible paths of my future.
So a lot of people become comfortable. They stop growing, they stop wanting anything, they become satisfied. People getting ready to go for jobs that they don't like, jobs that are making them sick. You see when you're not pursuing your goals, you are literally committing spiritual suicide. When you have some goal out here that you are stretching for and reaching for that takes you out of your comfort zone, you will find out some talents and abilities you have that you didn't know you have.
When the messenger of misery visits you, what are you going to do? What will keep you in the game?
There are things that you'll never need to know, that you may only need to know one time in your life but that could save your life because you had that knowledge.
Unless you attempt to do something beyond that, which you already mastered, you will never grow. What is it that you looked at, at some point in time you decided that you couldn't do it, that you talked yourself out of it.
What reason can you remember that you can call on, that you can reach on, that can make you get back up? Find that reason. If you're not where you are, if you're not where you wanna be, if you don't have what you want to have, if you are not where you think you should be at this particular place, it has nothing to do with the system but with the fact that you are not willing to make a sacrifice.
Listen to me, if it was easy, everybody would do it.
Most people take their greatness, take their ideas, to the graveyard with them.The wealthiest place on the planet is the graveyard. Because in the graveyard, we would find inventions that we were never ever exposed to, ideas, dreams that never became reality; hopes, aspirations that were never acted upon.
You will never ever be successful until you turn your pain into greatness, until you allow your pain to push you from where you are to push you to where you need to be. Stop pushing away your pain, embrace your pain.
Let the biggest enemy you have to deal with be yourself! There is an old African proverb that says if there is no enemy within, the enemy outside can do us no harm.
I would say if life knocks you down, try to land on your back because if you can look up, you can get back up.
Cr: the video SGAG shared
Was chatting with Jinghui and Renyong earlier and somehow we drifted to topic of..... A's.
I foresee the tension in the hall breaking the fine strings holding my sanity, the quote in blue circling my head. Fuck, I don't think I have the courage to look at my results, look at the judgement slip of my efforts, look at the possible paths of my future.
It's almost a month and I feel so detached from the world.
Thankfully, luckily, after eternal searching and endless trips to interviews, I've finally settled for a job - at Jamie's Italian with Cheng yay! Honestly, I've never heard of Jamie Oliver before this because well, I'm not much of a cooking person, I didn't even know who was Gordon Ramsay until he came to SG omg.
After the interview and the 4-hour trial (to experience how the day is like as a staff, and yes, the restaurant was busybusybusy, i like it), Cheng and I went for our induction, which is also the first day of work! Nothing much, mostly paperwork, getting to know the basics, procedures and precautions.
Didn't see it coming but after which, we were fed a feasttt *_*
I loveee the sauce for crispy squid! Couldn't figure out the ingredients they used upon tasting but the combination is PERFECT! I later found out that it's actually garlicky mayo & lemon~
Truffle Risotto and Turbo Penne Arrabiata is a MUST-TRY! From the picture, the Truffle Risotto looks like mainstream fish porridge from any coffeeshop ah but upon tasting, its a whole new different story, the sauce/marinade (?) (idk the right cooking term) is what makes the dish stands out, SCRUMPTIOUS!
And once again, its also the sauce/marinade and the breadcrumbs (hehe) that made me craved for more Penne Arrabiata, best pasta I've tasted yet! Oh yes, there's actually chili in it and I don't eat spicy food but the sauce was sooo nice that i was maximising my last few pieces of pasta by rolling it in as much sauce (whatever was remaining) as possible, I think I accidentally rolled into a chili piece (!?!) because my mouth burned like sh*t!!!!! I'D NEVER EATEN SMALL CHILI IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ouch my tongue :"( But after drinking a ton of cold water, I went back to finishing le pasta HAHAHA too good
And this his wife Jools, 4 children, Daisy, Poppy, Petal and son, Buddy.
His personal values (being family oriented) are also brought into work, in our restaurant, we have sections names after his family members, I find this really cool.
Also, children are very welcomed in Jamie's Italian! We have viewfinders and colouring materials to entertain children and kids meals come with a complimentary Shake Me salad to encourage them to eat their greens!
Thankfully, luckily, after eternal searching and endless trips to interviews, I've finally settled for a job - at Jamie's Italian with Cheng yay! Honestly, I've never heard of Jamie Oliver before this because well, I'm not much of a cooking person, I didn't even know who was Gordon Ramsay until he came to SG omg.
After the interview and the 4-hour trial (to experience how the day is like as a staff, and yes, the restaurant was busybusybusy, i like it), Cheng and I went for our induction, which is also the first day of work! Nothing much, mostly paperwork, getting to know the basics, procedures and precautions.
Didn't see it coming but after which, we were fed a feasttt *_*
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| (from top left, clockwise) Crispy Squid, Our Famous Polenta Chips, Truffle Risotto, Turbo Penne Arrabbiata, (not too sure), Prawn Linguine |
From the bottom of my heart, ALL the food tasted HEAVENLY ohmygod, brought back to short and sweet Costa Victoria days where 1 starter, 1 main, 1 dessert was never enough.
I LOVE ITALIAN FOOD ♥
Truffle Risotto and Turbo Penne Arrabiata is a MUST-TRY! From the picture, the Truffle Risotto looks like mainstream fish porridge from any coffeeshop ah but upon tasting, its a whole new different story, the sauce/marinade (?) (idk the right cooking term) is what makes the dish stands out, SCRUMPTIOUS!
And once again, its also the sauce/marinade and the breadcrumbs (hehe) that made me craved for more Penne Arrabiata, best pasta I've tasted yet! Oh yes, there's actually chili in it and I don't eat spicy food but the sauce was sooo nice that i was maximising my last few pieces of pasta by rolling it in as much sauce (whatever was remaining) as possible, I think I accidentally rolled into a chili piece (!?!) because my mouth burned like sh*t!!!!! I'D NEVER EATEN SMALL CHILI IN MY ENTIRE LIFE ouch my tongue :"( But after drinking a ton of cold water, I went back to finishing le pasta HAHAHA too good
I think Amy ordered a meat plank too! Was reallllyyy looking forward to it but it never came, sadly. This would have been how it looked like:
(googled for this picture) Cr: foodiefc.blogspot.com
Since I'm already introducing part of the restaurant, I might as well introduce more! : )
Hi this is my (is it to right to call him) boss, Jamie Oliver. Fabulous chef (duh), nice guy, family oriented
And this his wife Jools, 4 children, Daisy, Poppy, Petal and son, Buddy.
His personal values (being family oriented) are also brought into work, in our restaurant, we have sections names after his family members, I find this really cool.
*abrupt ending*
Cheng is w me for almost all my shifts, lookin' forward to work startin' tmr! :)
Vivo's the only outlet in Asia, great food not to be missed! DO VISIT!!!
Friday, 28 November
End of LAST PAPER, also, wearing the school uniform for the last time and hence, the mandatory shot:
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Oh and yes, ripped the entry proof as well (checked) (Y)
Cuaght The Hunger Games: Catching Fire at The Cathay w le clique
Cuaght The Hunger Games: Catching Fire at The Cathay w le clique
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chuchu ft. mocking jay
Saturday, 29 November
Haji Lane
Haji Lane w Dada & Minz.
Had an overview of how Haji was like after watching bongqiuqiu's Budget Barbie video and since, it was my virgin trip there, I was pretty excited!
Mental note to dress somewhat nicely because everyone always instagrams their OOTDs at Haji. And so, I wore my wedges that day. Unfortunately, the right sole decided to detach itself while I was otw to the bus stop = = argh OOTD ruined. Fortunately, I had an extra pair of shoes in my bag because 1) I saw that coming and 2) I had work in the afternoon .
I believe NO ONE IS BORN AN EXPERT OOTD MODEL because mine came off quite awkwardly imo haha. I partly blame my wedges for pangseh-ing me.
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Damn that bin
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Really an OOTD paradise. Nice backgrounds everywhere *_*
Work @ Cedele
Met Cheng later on for work! It was a one-day thing haha. We were only working on the day of the preview of the performance by ze Jumping Jamming Elves.
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Pastries to serve
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People's Park Center
Joined Minz, Dada & WY. They had went around looking for and shortlisting suitable packages for our KOREA TRIP :D:D:D
Oh! I must add, Brenda's shoes' sole came out after I left hahahah
Timbre
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Quotes Mindy, "the legendary duck pizza"
The BEST pizza I've ever tasted ohmygod
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Some alcohol cos we're 18 hahaha
Sex on The Beach (left), Long John (right)
SOTB tasted like medicine. Cherry-ish and... panadol-ish. Didn't like it!
Long John was way better! There was cola inside :)
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Note to self: Let some ice melt before drinking
Saw someone that looked a lot like Cheryl Ng and I kept accidentally having eye contact with her ohmygod. So happen, Mindy glanced around and saw her, "What if I told you Cheryl Ng is here?" . Holymoly. We concluded later on that she was just a look-alike phew
Sunday, 30 November
Raegan's birthday! It was raining, again, as it was last year omg.
My aunt told me she was going to Korea and I told I was too!
Coincidentally, she booked her tour the SAME AGENCY (as the one we shortlisted) AND THE EXACT SAME PACKAGE SOMEMORE OMG HAHAHAHA
Monday, 1 December
Resting at home
Tuesday, 2 December
Out with Cheng, Minz & Pris supposedly on a food excursion haha!
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| Eggs Iberico |
The poached eggs were am♥zing and the bacon and the sauce.
But the sundried bread (the brown thing below the eggs) was ..... horrible. So hard!
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Oh! I must add, Minz's shoes' sole came out after she left.
Hahaha omg "Tis' the season for shoes to spoil~"
But they blame me walao, they say everytime I'm around, their shoes will spoil tsk.
Should've taken this photo at night. When the lights are turned on, the whole stretch of lane is soooooo pr♥tty!!!
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Dinner at a Jap eatery (?) Nice taco balls, nice girl-time
Wednesday, 3 December
Out with Ah Hong, JingNing & LiXin!Lunch at Manhatten Fish Market. This is my first time drinking Gummy Bear despite serving it many times last year lols and IT REALLY TASTE LIKE GUMMY BEARS OMG
Also had a mini birthday celebration for JingNing :D
KBox
Student deal: S13/ 2-7pm incl. 2 drinks per pax. Sounds totally worth it!
Ordered Honey Lemon Tea w Aloe Vera! To soothe mah throat HAHAHA
Little did we know that these 2 small bowls of snacks cost $7 each *faints*
Actually I'm not sure if the deal is as what they say?? Because we entered at around 2+3pm but were asked to end at 6.30pm : (
Total bill was $24 per pax = = Got a shock. Because we didn't see the T&C at the bottom, $4 copyright, compulsory titbits (whut) and also all the tax omg
Nonetheless, happy day :)
Thursday, 4 December
Mummy's birthday :D Slothing at home, drama marathon, THE HEIRS!!!
Oh yes, and first time buying 4D (checked)
First time striking 4D (unchecked)
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Friday, 5 December
Free Starbucks Day, 5-7pm
People started queuing from 4.30pm lols.
Cranberry White Chocolate Mocha was still the best :)
Peppermint Mocha really tasted like mint. A minty drink. Can't really taste the coffee.
Toffee Nut Latte tasted like.... caramel toffees hahaha!
And YES I did donate! $2.50 haha . This 2 cheapos too lazy to take out their coin pouch and took some of my coins tsktsk
Saturday, 6 December
Met Mindy to BOOK OUR TRIP LIKEAFINALLY ;D
Cannot believe it is actually happening. We were only casually talking about it in the cafe just yesterday a few months back, with so much uncertainties fazed upon us. Which location (Bali? Thailand? America? Taiwan? Japan?),parental consent (a major prob for me, I only officially told/asked my father a week after Chem MCQ because I was afraid I'd have no mood to study if he says no), who can go, who can't go, when to go
Initially, we wanted to plan our own trip. Which means, list of uncertainties extended 1) location of our 3 meals, 2) transport (taxi, subway, or mini van?), 3) language barriers (i'm only proficient enough to survive shopping la), 4) safety 5) accommodation, availability of rooms (hotel or motel lols) 6) cost 7) itinerary 8) our travelling route etc. There were just so much doubts!!
1 to 2 weeks before A's ended, we scraped the plan of backpacking. I was thankful hahaha. I don't want to YOLO and get lost overseas and panic.
Shopping after that, did my nails at Sephora oops hehe
and went to flea at Lucky Plaza. Happy that I got mah loot paddlepop jacket and a high-waisted shorts, both are new, at only $12. Happy girl am I :)
A quiet storm
That's never sure
Tomorrow's not promised
When it's all said and done
Why don't things ever
Seem that clear to me
Why do I only see shades of grey
Why am I so insecure
What the hell could I be searching for
Somebody cut me open so I can see
The inside of me
So beautiful
Yet so insecure, so insecure.
So beautiful
Yet so insecure, so insecure.
In the dark so alone like
A bird feel like flying
When I try, don't know
When I try, don't know
Why I start drowning
Overtime in mind I feel like
These four walls are going to cave in
Stressed from the pressure
Under everybody's standard
Overtime in mind I feel like
These four walls are going to cave in
Stressed from the pressure
Under everybody's standard
Damn it is breaking me down
I can't seem to get a hold on me
I can't seem to get a hold on me
Why am I so insecure
What the hell could I be searching for
Somebody cut me open
Somebody cut me open
So I can see the inside of me
So beautiful
Yet so insecure, so insecure
Yet so insecure, so insecure
Honestly speaking, I'm gonna miss school. NOT missing waking up at 6am everyday, mentally peeling my eyelids trying to stay awake for lectures in the CC and Chem classes, ending school at 5+ because of extra lessons (i forgot what's the term they used for the extra compulsory lectures already. wow my brain sure is efficient in clearing memory space). NOT missing fighting drowsy spells, trying to hang in there till just a lil past 1am, till my "sleepy" period is over, rushing through tutorials, assignments, revision packages that
Butttt I'm gonna miss everything else that is non-'sleep-deprived' related.
From wearing the SA uniform and school tie (whut? ikr), to saying hi to a junior Saint at the busstop in the morning. From meeting Cheng at the MRT, to running to school when I can no longer afford to be late. From chilling in the cafe at our usual tables, to taking pictures of my friends sleeping (hawhaw). From hanging arms around shoulders singing the College Hymn every chapel, to strumming muh cembalo at the gallery steps in preparation for SYF. From buying Milo Dead Sea at the Popcafe, to hearing the random "Kumars" during assembly hahahahaha. From looking at the fluffy baby bunnies that they used to keep in the garden, to jamming in the LT when it was empty ;-) Also gonna miss class picnics & breakfasts!!!
Checked off most of everything I had wanted to do in SA but there's just one thing that I never got a chance to. That is lying in the middle of the field and gaze at stars if any. THE FREAKING FIELD WAS WET WHEN WE HAD CAMP :(
Flashing back, all I see are my friends' smiles, all I hear are my friends' laughter.
Oh and also tears.
Tears were shed on multiple occasions but tears were never shed alone.
These 2 years were really short. Really. But really worthwhile. Really. I had learnt a lot, grew a lot and changed a lot imo. Although SA wasn't my first choice, I wouldn't change anything if given another chance! :) No regrets. No one is here by chance.
YES it's my last paper tomorrow and I'm so distracted looking for jobs (secured one for Friday. efficient. ikr. HAHAHA) and blogging.
Anyways, these were a couple of things I..... had wanted to do. Some of them were not intended nor planned beforehand but they just happened along the way la like number 6. Yeah. #dontjudge oi
To-do-list
- Buying the Once a Saint, always a Saint & SASS shirt (check)
- Trying Milo Dead Sea (check)
- Jamming in the LT (check)
- Star-gazing in the middle of the field (uncheck)
- Try eating from the Mixed Rice stall (uncheck)
- Slept on a bench (check)
- Make a video collage of class pictures/ random pictures took along the way ft. everyone sleeping and got caught on camera (say cheese) (check)
- Tear name stickers after OP with OP mates (uncheck. it's still intact and stuck onto my Math file)
- Tear entry proof after A's (TOMORROW IT'S GONNA BE CHECKED BABEH)
10.talktoEC(uncheck)
Okay now I realised that I have quite many unchecks darn it.
It was just yesterday but it felt like a distant memory
Just came back from an interview and awkarddddddd...... Like 50% of the interviewees were from SA lols. Okay I don't feel awkward but before the interview, Pris and I were talking about hoping not to see anyone we know and during the interview......*_* SA girl walks in, another SA girl walks in,........ SA boy walks in, another SA boy walks in. Just *_* talk about coincidental . We don't know really know them personally but we see them around school hahaha.
Plan B (if i don't get da job)
Shall proceed to dying my hair ash blonde <3
Go back to PHS to teach + give tuition
Back to waitressing (?)
Plan B (if i don't get da job)
Shall proceed to dying my hair ash blonde <3
Go back to PHS to teach + give tuition
Back to waitressing (?)
Watched God of Study 2 years back and it was really inspiring
It made me feel like studying and..... uhm...it was the holidays just after O's
Anyways, I screenshot all the study tips thinking they might come in handy when I become like the students in the drama, taking the college entrance exams, in my case, A'levels
Yeap
It's probably the rightest time to browse through them now hahaha
*touch wood* no failing pls TT
Yes 알았서요
Vectors hahaha
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME HAVE ANY OF THESE EXPRESSIONS IN MARCH 2014 !!!!!! T_T
The atmosphere when they were taking their exams is like going for war sia
Alright, off to read my 'simple revision notes'
