Yay! Omg okay my grades didn't break hahaha it was goooood! And now round 2 of chionging and I'm about done ahahah

Okay this is totally unrelated but realised it's quite scary how one decision can change our lives. Aiya as in I alr knew this but like, I'm only feeling the impact as of recent.
And dayum! Realised that stalking browsing through social media *ahem* too much isn't so much of a good thing, given that I freaking can't pretend to not know something that I alr do what theeeee okay no more stalking for me and TIME TO FOCUS ON MKTG CHANNELS AKA LAST PAPER TMRRRR

And wah I rlly pray for more fate, idk how but like.... ya. So similar omg I can't believe it

Omg pre exam blues
Walking to LWN today and halfway, I felt like I was walking on air, looked down and ohmygod my slipper broke, tied a rubber band, fixed it, life goes on

Went back to hall,  w like zero percent motivation, wanted to jam, took up my guitar, and fug my string also broke! Ohmygahddd.

Nvm everything break today can, the next 2 days my grades plsplspls dont break can alr HAHAHAH what theeeee #preexamblues #itsasign #SHOPPINGSOON

Nearing the end of finals! Well, I only have 2 hahaha
The past 4 months had yet again, gone by in a whirl, a flurry, a blur.
Fast-forwading now, it's the end of Year 2 Sem 1! Whut?
It won't be long bef we're all caught up preparing next semester's modules, intern, exchange, yadayada... It doesn't stop

And yeap, at this point of time, I've realised the fragility of relationships, be it friendships or otherwise. It's rlly all about the effort, commitment and willingness to stay around. Given how we are busybusy every day, every week, interacting with so many people, it's so easy to forget the memories and feelings that 2 individuals once shared, platonically, or not. Perhaps that's why some people don't give too much of a damn in making friends, cos many of them are well, fleeting #fact. There just ain't enough time to maintain so many friendships and after some time, we choose just only a handful to hang out and be in constant contact with and enjoy the company of whoever is around at that moment.

Yeaaa, it only just hit me. Hahaha pardon, a lil slow maybe ^^;
Ah, in any case, glad that I have the friendships I need to keep me going, the constants :) <3

Lol I rmb telling Nicole last December, that it would be such a nice feeling walking down Orchard with your loved one, with all the Christmas lights hung up and twinkling around. And one year on, still the same!!! lololol #giveup

Embarking on the next chapter soon!
...... Eh why am I being so pensive rn anw lol

Aye, not sure if I'm making the right decisions, but it's not like I would know how life would turn out if I had done things differently, would I? Guess its all about appreciating the present and here's to a beautiful winter ahead, regardless of what it holds :)

This sem really made me opened my eyes to the world. This is really the first time I know people who are 100% late for deadlines, make me redo 100% of their work (not that I'm being overly perfectionist but the quality is a total piece of shit), never contribute but still complain so much (what the), stay up a bit later to finish up their work also cannot, only saying useless comments during meetings (e.g. pretending to worry about our group grades when her actions speak otherwise)

Damn good for nothing? I quote, "Only doing bare minimum. But got one, worse, no minimum." lol.  Total leachers!? Ohmygod. Like, why do such people even exist?

Omg. The next time someone complains when they did absolutely NOTHING, I'm gonna shoot a "Don't ask what they government can do for you but what you can do for the country." LOL.
Talk so much, might as well channel your energy to solving the problem instead.

Finals in 2 weeks
Motivation level = 0

Time to reflip old posts to search for some motivation BRB!!!

Okay the video really sparked me in expressing this

FINALLY someone speaking it all out. Okay I'm not rlly articulate in my thoughts and when people ask me why do you have 2 accounts or why do you stop using dandelii0n anymore? I don't rlly know what to say. I mean, it's like, there's a lot of reasons why I did what I did. But people don't usually have time or neither would they be interested to here some long ass story, and it's so hard to give a single concise reason. So usually I'd give the most acceptable answer of wanting to separate photography from group pictures so that my feed would be more uniformed. Which is a legit reason as well but it was not why I quit.

And then there's the worry about getting judged or people speaking negatively about me behind my back but here, oh god, she said it man, she said it. This is a one of the major factors why I quit. Well I didn't exactly quit... I just don't post daily anymore... Maybe a post once a week or a couple of weeks, when I have a sudden burst of creative juices, or when I have a picture that happens to be nice.

Other reasons include:
I don't like the idea of strangers stalking my friends. Or people forming perceptions of me from my social media postings/comments/followers/followings and then observing or scrutinising me in real life. Neither do I like being so obsessed with the amount of likes for every post or being obsessed with the 'prime time' to post to generate the highest amount of likes. I wanna be post when I feel like it, it's a memory to keep and that's why I'm posting a picture of it.  I don't want it to become a competition of social approval. What matters is that I like the picture or the memory and that's why I'm posting it. I don't rlly have to care if you or other people like it or not. I also found it extremely irrational that I actually truly felt sad when people unfollowed me. Like why am I even getting upset over something so... virtual...  I want to lead a happy life and not let my emotions hinge on other people's approval or interest in my life.

It was hard at the start, trying to pull away but the urge to check the like/follower count was still gnawing. It's hard even conceiving that thought of quitting when you have a decently significant amount of followers. Yeah I felt good about myself when people commented things like "wahhh are you a secretly blogger or something?" "are you leading that hannah montana life" "famous already don't forget me hor". (Ahah sry btw but I have no intentions on becoming famous ahah) Yeah it's ego boosting. But it's also addictive. Or rather somehow it was to me when I was still seventeen.

But now hey, I truly don't give a fuck if my public follower count drops a 1000 right now. Had been contemplating to delete the current and create a new account for my photography/ photo edits/ occasional selfies haha. But nah, why go through all that trouble.

Baby steps, yea. It sounds stupid when you tell other people you are social media addict. But the addiction is real man. It consumed me. Now that I have broken free of it, proud to say that I'm way happier right now. Yay :)