4/11 'why do you quit dandelii0n?'

Okay the video really sparked me in expressing this

FINALLY someone speaking it all out. Okay I'm not rlly articulate in my thoughts and when people ask me why do you have 2 accounts or why do you stop using dandelii0n anymore? I don't rlly know what to say. I mean, it's like, there's a lot of reasons why I did what I did. But people don't usually have time or neither would they be interested to here some long ass story, and it's so hard to give a single concise reason. So usually I'd give the most acceptable answer of wanting to separate photography from group pictures so that my feed would be more uniformed. Which is a legit reason as well but it was not why I quit.

And then there's the worry about getting judged or people speaking negatively about me behind my back but here, oh god, she said it man, she said it. This is a one of the major factors why I quit. Well I didn't exactly quit... I just don't post daily anymore... Maybe a post once a week or a couple of weeks, when I have a sudden burst of creative juices, or when I have a picture that happens to be nice.

Other reasons include:
I don't like the idea of strangers stalking my friends. Or people forming perceptions of me from my social media postings/comments/followers/followings and then observing or scrutinising me in real life. Neither do I like being so obsessed with the amount of likes for every post or being obsessed with the 'prime time' to post to generate the highest amount of likes. I wanna be post when I feel like it, it's a memory to keep and that's why I'm posting a picture of it.  I don't want it to become a competition of social approval. What matters is that I like the picture or the memory and that's why I'm posting it. I don't rlly have to care if you or other people like it or not. I also found it extremely irrational that I actually truly felt sad when people unfollowed me. Like why am I even getting upset over something so... virtual...  I want to lead a happy life and not let my emotions hinge on other people's approval or interest in my life.

It was hard at the start, trying to pull away but the urge to check the like/follower count was still gnawing. It's hard even conceiving that thought of quitting when you have a decently significant amount of followers. Yeah I felt good about myself when people commented things like "wahhh are you a secretly blogger or something?" "are you leading that hannah montana life" "famous already don't forget me hor". (Ahah sry btw but I have no intentions on becoming famous ahah) Yeah it's ego boosting. But it's also addictive. Or rather somehow it was to me when I was still seventeen.

But now hey, I truly don't give a fuck if my public follower count drops a 1000 right now. Had been contemplating to delete the current and create a new account for my photography/ photo edits/ occasional selfies haha. But nah, why go through all that trouble.

Baby steps, yea. It sounds stupid when you tell other people you are social media addict. But the addiction is real man. It consumed me. Now that I have broken free of it, proud to say that I'm way happier right now. Yay :)