There are such times you know I feel like I was in the lead. Never thought that I would have been. They said it was hard, it was difficult. But I tried anyway. I just gave my best, gave my all. Never thought that I would have made it so far, though I admittedly clung on to that hope, that I would. Remember thinking to myself, receiving that invitation to the academy was the proudest achievement of my life.

Fast forward. Jumping over hurdles after hurdles, I drew myself closer towards the finishing line. I made it to the first round of interview, and then the second round, and finally the final round. Success was within reach! I basked in happiness, in the applause and the excitement. Then, all of a sudden, I tripped. I fell. I looked up and saw everyone running pass me one by one. And there I am, with a sprained ankle, trying to get myself up to run again. It is hard, with one disappointment after another.

But I guess this is a test isn't it? If I will stand, or fall.
I tell them that I am resilient, that I was trained to be so after 5 years of sales experience and experiencing countless of rejections. I guess it's time to live up to my name. Hobbling now, through the smog, I am still holding onto the dream, finding the direction and getting the momentum to sprint again.

Well. "Nothing worth it comes easy. If it was easy, everyone would have done it"
And I will do it! And live to be a even greater testimonial to inspire.

It was the same thing for HOCC. Never ever thought that we (humble hall 4) would have gotten 2nd, we just did our very best we could and gave our all. And it was the same thing for the intern application for my dream company (well, quite. Making to the final interview counts as 2nd I suppose haha). It will be the same thing for my graduate job. But this time, it won't be second. It will be number one man, number one! I will get that job that I had missed. Yes I will.

"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you too, can become great. When you are seeking to bring big plans to tuition, it is important with whom you regularly associate. Hang out with friends who are like-minded and who are also designing purpose-filled lives. Similarly be that kind of a friend for your friends." - Mark Twain

"Don't expect to see positive changes in your life if you are surrounded by negative people"

"Surround yourself with the dreamers, and the doers, the believers and the thinkers, but most of all, surround yourself with those who seek greatness within you, even when you don't see it yourself."

"Walk with the dreamers, the believers, the courageous, the cheerful, the planners, the doers, the successful people with their heads in the clouds and their feet on the ground" - Wilfred Peterson

"Surround yourself with people that reflect who you want to be and how you want to feel, energies are contagious". YAS MAN damn right, energies are friggin contagious!!!

"You are only going to be as good as the people you surround yourself with so be brave enough to let go of those who keep weighing you down"

"People inspire you, or they drain you - pick them wisely"

"Make a conscious effort to surround yourself with positive, nourishing and UPLIFTING PEOPLE - people who believe in you, encourage you to go after your dreams, and applaud your victories"

Gonna go for a good goooood holiday and pamper myself once finals end HOMAIGAHD

And exchange is a definite must

Used to not get why ppl will comment "that's a good thing" when I say I'm naturally high (like as in dont need alcohol to be high HAHA) or why ppl comment "always so full of energy ah" and stuff like that. I realised why now. I was so blessed to be surrounded by mah happy pills last time and like now ermahgahd mah happy pills are so far from meeeee

Then I realised actl a lot of ppl are not happy. Like they just let their days roll by like that, yknow, just going through routined actions and flat of emotions. And I never could really understand how ppl even let their days go by like that, I mean like... SO SIAN!!! I didn't realise how subconsciously I morphed into one of them till I watched this video by brendon.com and the stuff he says rlly re-ignited the flame in me, re-lighted my passion in life. Snapped me out of the trance-like bubble I've been stuck in. He talked about doing the things that sets your heart on fire and about leading the charged life.  YES, the charged life! Making every day count! Looking forward to every day because you have a purpose in life that you are working towards! And like YA omg that was what I was feeling every single day last year lah. I realised it was because I made a consistent effort to be happy in the past, I prayed to be happy and surrounded myself w happy ppl :) I had something that I was striving towards and that very goal pumped me up so much motivation and energy that propelled me to chionging long hours every day. I'm actually quite amazed by how focused and determined I was... (And I think the interviewers are too ahaha)

And this sem I'm so out of my usual self, seriously. I guess what they say about being influenced by the ppl around you is rlly true!!!! Daheck sia!!! Been spending too much time talking to negative ppl and it drains the heck load of happiness and energy from me. OMG I rlly need to work in my dream company. Cannot imagine working in some other companies where other ppl are so sian every day, damn sian one man!

This time out is rlly coming in handy. I feel sooooo much happier. I feel my emotions spiking up again. YAY! Time to kick negative ppl away. Don't come and be a wet blanket and steal my happiness away TSK go away!!!

OMG looking forward to Thurs onwards hehehe ^^