The sad truth that we might not all promote
4:19:00 PMI don't have much time left to study alr, I still have got to say this.
Although I can't handle my own revision alr, I still worry so much for my friends. The people in this awesomely bonded, most fun class might not be I see around next year. I know that they are really stress right now even though they still seem so happy and bubbly and being guai lan, cracking jokes, laugh, make fun of people (not in a mean way) etc. Somehow, I feel that they are actually trying to cherish these last moments with us, I mean it's possible that they might not make it >~< ! And seeing them being laughing and all, yea, I'll laugh along :)
But when they are alone and such, their worries unmasks and you really can tell that they are really stress. Isolating away to revise when we're lunch-ing, going for a ton of consultations, always staying back to study in school, covering their lecture booklets with scribbles and notes.
In the heat of studying and constantly burning the midnight oil, some people just burn out !
Like how some just keep falling asleep in class/ lectures, and not even doing tutorials. Ahhhh ! I feel so worried for them !!! I really want to be there, pacing them, pushing them, guiding them... BUT I can't even handle my own time now, how to help others :3 especially after coming to JC omg, slack like sheeet !
I kind of miss those PHSDevotion mugger class spirit actl hahah ! It's like peer pressure and when there's a small class test that day, everyone would pull out their books and study during assembly. You don't want to study, also will get scared and study in the end lols. Ever since I come into JC, woahhhhhh ! Start to be late, start to sleep in class, constantly, don't know concepts anyhow whack in tests. Hahah !It's like when I'm tired, BOOM ! *doze off* Whoops ! I have no idea why. Maybe the CC has some sleeping gas which only diffuses to me.
When I tried keeping awake for one lecture, I realised how much I actl missed out during the times I was sleeping ! *mortifieddd* Because I always thought that the lectures are quite.... duhhh as in, firstly I don't even understand what the lecturer is talking about. Secondly, everything is in the lecture notes what ?! Okay, but at least I realised I was wrong :)
Just now after alighting, me, Brenda and CY stood at our usual chatspot and HTHT about how the class is going and all. Wahhhh if they really retain, those high-risk ppl, our class would be SO boring next year ! Cos they are one of the major contributors to the fun in classes . Talking halfway and just the thought about it, almost made me cry ! The tears didn't flow out though HAHAHA ! They just stuck there, I refuse to let them out =)
How I wish we are students in the God of Study's "special class" and the teachers there really drill and plan out a schedule for us and customise teaching to all our learning styles, strengths and weakness. Highly inspired after watching that show after 'O's. I think I should re-watch after Promos and PW :)
I told them how we should really follow our senior class' footsteps. They mug as a class, advanced as a class, improved A WHOLE LOT as a class. Quoted as one of the most improved classes and for the class that displayed very strong class spirit. During the holidays, half the class came back and study together at the canteen. :')
CY and Brenda told me that it's because they really woke up after some of their classmates didn't make it. Nooooooo ! I don't want anyone to leave (okay, maybe a few I'm not really close to but oh well~)
Although I hate studying like crap now, I actually think that these will be one of the times that I'll look back when I graduate and miss. Studying, being stressed until I feel like giving up, my head becoming too saturated with info, equations, keywords etc., going for consultations, seeing the freaking annoying countdown banner, studying with the company of my friend(s), studying in my room at my table while drinking Starbucks coffee and eating cookies with the aircon on and the windows open bigbig so that the natural sunlight light falls in. hahaha :)
Best of all, butt into Honour's roll :D !!! Big dream zzzzz.
With the state I am in now, I find it really hard to believe myself that I actl was a scholar, nominated for HSP (which I declined because I wanted to go into Science stream~)
Okay... Scholar sounds a bit overrated. Change to get scholarships la :D
-----------Jesselyn in Honours' Roll----------
Woahhhh sounds so out of reach now = = Whatever, haha !
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