Reflections of 2013 anddd life

2013 2014... It's 2014 now, 7 days into the new year and I'm still living under the illusion that my life, my holidays would magically work out by itself to be one most fulfilling and worthwhile since it's THE holidays I pined for since my... secondary school days?

I haven't really done any proper reflections of the past year because... because... it felt like an ordinary day to me, 1 January 2014 felt like a date as ordinary as any of the other 364 days. It didn't feel like a new year, a new beginning, 2013 wasn't year I wanted to close so badly, it was a year I wanted to last in fact. I don't like beginnings because it only means that something else has ended and I don't like endings : (

Oh and also because I was sick on freaking NEW YEAR'S EVE!!!!! Trotted back 11.20pm, afraid my body would collapse at work the next day if I attempted to tank 40 more minutes to watch the fireworks and there I was, at the bus stop waiting for my bus when it struck midnight~~~ #ordinarynight

Moving on, it's been 40 days after my last A level paper and I had put a couple more checkmarks to my to-do-list. Summing up the last 40 whirlwinds of day and night, I...

- found a job
- earned $1k+ with the Edusave award being a huge contributor woohoo,
- ate a plenty of great food
- cruised with my family 

- pampered my nails twice
- caught up on my dramas and found a new girl idol crush Ha Yeon Soo!!!

- met up with my JC, 
secondary school,
 Soka and
PRIMARY school friends

And generally found a routine substituting school :)

Now putting a belated closure, one of my takeaways for 2013 is that the same opportunity doesn't come knocking twice. 

I constantly think about how my life would have been so different if I had chosen this over that, if I had been a little more brave, if I had a little more confidence, if, if, if, the list goes on.

I relate life to a labyrinth and choices to paths at a junction.
With every choice you make, you are sent on another path of twists and turns and ups and downs to complete yet another chapter of a story called "Your Life".

Some junctions of life are clear, they have telling signs, guiding signals, you follow your heart, you know the paths to choose, junctions like your choice of subject combinations, your career, your lover. It's obvious the choice you make would vary your life significantly.  

However, some junctions are unclear. You never knew you were at a junction, you never knew the paths ahead could twirl and lead to four different corners of Earth. There are times when paths might only seem to deviate by mere few degrees, the choices you make might seem insignificant, like volunteering for a day at the hospital or even turning up for a social gathering, but choosing to embark on that journey could prove otherwise, transforming your life in ways you would never have expected

Sometimes, choices of that moment could steer life onto path that would have brought you to places so different. Simple choices like answering "Yes" or "No".

Then again, some paths are circular, they lead you back where you came from. And you only realised you wasted your time, made the wrong choice when you find your surroundings too familiar, situations too similar, you're right back at the same spot. 

Life is after all but a labyrinth.

Perhaps life would be clearer if we knew we would be approaching a junction. 
Perhaps life would be better if we had time to prep ourselves before facing a junction. 
Perhaps life would be easier if there were danger signs around a junction. 

But life doesn't go the way we want to. The least we could do would probably be to appreciate the scenery and surroundings while on a path before coming to another junction.

I don't know how my reflection of 2013 became a reflection about life but it feels good to finally cement the flashing thoughts that have been confusing me for a while now.

Yet another abrupt ending but this time with a photo edit I finally found time to do, ah~ gotta do some photoshoots soon, I miss taking pictures and spending countless hours editing them after lols